something is observed and something is the observer. the process of observing connects the two. a perfomer is observed by an audience. self is observed by self and maybe by others.

the observer can observe with or without judgment. the observed can be the same as or different than what is observed.

observed <---- judgment/non-judgment <---- observer

the observed can exist without a particular observer but I don't think it can exist without an observer because it is defined as that which is observed. anything sentient must then always be observed at the very least by itself. self not observing itself is unconsciousness.

observed <--- observing/not-observing <--- observer

self <---- observing ----- max(self, self + others)

others <---- observing ---- self

the questions i am interested in: what is considered adaptive and maladaptive? is the observation adaptive or maladaptive? what are traits of adaptive observation? what are traits of maladaptive observation?

i observe myself sometimes without judgment. other times, i have positive judgment, or negative judgement. i believe that judgment comes from definitions of adaptive or maladaptive, and those definitions come from self and others. humans have a very long phase of neoteny (the retention of juvenile features in an adult animal). our extended phase of neoteny also indicates we have a lot of potential to adapt to whatever is currently considered adaptive in our civilization.

what we consider adaptive for ourselves may not align with what others consider adaptive for themselves or for us.

internalization results when we adopt someone else's definitions of adaptive and maladaptive. this may not align with what we consider adaptive or maladaptive. the subjectivity of the observer and the subjectivity of the self are misaligned if as the observer, we internalize subjectivity from others. self-awareness highlights this contrast and we may feel out of integrity with ourselves. sometimes we may reduce our consciousness (addiction/hypernormalization) when faced with this contrast, and other times we may increase our consciousness (practice self-awareness).

individuation heals this conflict as it results in the subjectivity of the observer and the subjectivity of the self being aligned. we stop observing through the eyes of others and develop our own lens of observation. this brings clarity, joy and inspiration. this brings interpersonal instead of intrapersonal contrast.

in defense of internalization (and contrast), it allows us an opportunity to learn and grow. the inreasing precision of perception occurs through the following process: things are perceived > the accuracy of perception is evaluated > either the perception is adjusted, or new things are observed